Loose Control !

I have been realizing recently how majority of us are such control freaks in our lives. We try to control our lifestyle, work, relationships even our minds and others too. And if some day for some reason we loose control we freak out as if the world has ended for us. But it’s not really true. I for the last 7 months have no control over anything my body ( illness), my being stranded home, not able to go to work or do anything independently. And it initially freaked me out for a couple of months. I tried to control my body and it back fired me as if challenging me and saying “ Try ur luck buddy but ur not going to be able to control me.

Finally all I could do is what my teacher Prasad had told me long before my struggle …Just let loose and let be ! Surrender completely. The task of surrendering and let be wasn’t as easy as his words made it sound. It was almost like being on a cliff and taking a big jump into the river wearing a life jacket without knowing swimming but trusting the instructor saying u will sail thru this and when u do u will have the most joyous moment of ur life.

As I began to think of surrender was reminded of my Himalayan Trek experience where I just did that .. jump into the river for 30 ft height not knowing swimming but to just experience the thrill of what my friends were enjoying. I recalled the fear at the beginning, the almost giving up attitude and then the courage and trust that the instructor and my friends were there promising to take care of me if I didn’t float after the jump. And u know what I took that big jump and made it. Not only did I make it I lost my fear and took the jump twice ..it made me feel so proud of myself.

It’s exactly the feeling that I am getting today… in this final lap of my treatment. I made it through the toughest phase of my life .. just have the tail end to get done with it. And it makes me proud of myself. Its been a tough journey but yes I am almost there …and all I did to reach here was LOOSE CONTROL !

Yes my friends Loose Control and see what you gain and where it takes!