Dard !

Na jaane iss dard mein bhi kyo, ek khaas ehsaas hai
Na jaane kyo himmat na harne ki ab bhi ek choti si aas hai.

Iss dard se to ab ek gehra rishta sa mehsus hone gaga hai
Jaise uski har ek sisak dil ke bhaut paas hai

Pal pal har pal saath bakubhi nibhaya issne,phir bhi aaj isse aage nikal jane ki aas hai

Na jaane iss dard mein bhi kyo, ek khaas ehsaas hai
Na jaane kyo himmat na harne ki ab bhi ek choti si aas hai.



Well not that this is my 1st attempt as hindi poetry however this one i am writing from my hospital bed and straight from my heart(as I complete the last lap of my treatment going on for last 7 months.)
Was thinking about the long Journey I had with 'Pain'(Dard). This poetry is an expression of my final release, how i dealt and felt about the emmotional and physical pain this journey took me through.

Taare Zameen Par

Just saw the film ‘Taare Zameen Par’ a directorial debut by Aamir Khan. It’s a well scripted and acted film. I totally loved the way it so beautifully brings forth what Dyslexia is about and emotions that the child goes through. Aamir and specially the new debutant child artist Darsheel is just brilliant.

The key message that the film conveys is that “ Every child is special”. But there is a deeper thought that the film has brought to me. Yes indeed every child is special however with growing years we tend to ignore this little special child in each of us. We beat this special often at the pretext of competition, relationship, pressures etc. The uniqueness of the little child within gets over looked. We always want to be like the other just being ourself isn’t something that we value. We take away its innocence & playfulness. Then we wonder where and why did we loose this special inner child within each of us. Thus its important let this inner child live and grow. Acknowledge and appreciate its uniqueness no matter how evident it may be to the world or not.

‘Once I was lost but now I am found …amazing grace’ on this note as I set out to seek and pamper that innocent special child within me I request you to set off on that inner journey too !

Sacrifice ...is it a must plz ??

Have been observing and wondering why is it that great men /women ,geniuses be it in the corporate world who are visionaries, or be it doctors who are so committed to their patients and healing or legends like a Mahatma Gandhi who gave India a vision and will to get it’s freedom …all these great people while are committed to their lives purposes or rather passions they choose but when it comes to their personal and family lives just seem to be sacrificer's ( that was being polite the word I have in mind is ‘Losers’). Their families and specially their children pay a heavy price in the name of their parents hypocritical Value systems/ beliefs or just sheer lack of time since they are out build a better world for people out there walking over their children’s dreams and aspirations.

Is it really impossible to balance life. Is it a must to sacrifice one for the cause of the other. Or is it a choice these people or that matter all of us make? I am still seeking answers to this …anyone and suggestions ?

Loose Control !

I have been realizing recently how majority of us are such control freaks in our lives. We try to control our lifestyle, work, relationships even our minds and others too. And if some day for some reason we loose control we freak out as if the world has ended for us. But it’s not really true. I for the last 7 months have no control over anything my body ( illness), my being stranded home, not able to go to work or do anything independently. And it initially freaked me out for a couple of months. I tried to control my body and it back fired me as if challenging me and saying “ Try ur luck buddy but ur not going to be able to control me.

Finally all I could do is what my teacher Prasad had told me long before my struggle …Just let loose and let be ! Surrender completely. The task of surrendering and let be wasn’t as easy as his words made it sound. It was almost like being on a cliff and taking a big jump into the river wearing a life jacket without knowing swimming but trusting the instructor saying u will sail thru this and when u do u will have the most joyous moment of ur life.

As I began to think of surrender was reminded of my Himalayan Trek experience where I just did that .. jump into the river for 30 ft height not knowing swimming but to just experience the thrill of what my friends were enjoying. I recalled the fear at the beginning, the almost giving up attitude and then the courage and trust that the instructor and my friends were there promising to take care of me if I didn’t float after the jump. And u know what I took that big jump and made it. Not only did I make it I lost my fear and took the jump twice ..it made me feel so proud of myself.

It’s exactly the feeling that I am getting today… in this final lap of my treatment. I made it through the toughest phase of my life .. just have the tail end to get done with it. And it makes me proud of myself. Its been a tough journey but yes I am almost there …and all I did to reach here was LOOSE CONTROL !

Yes my friends Loose Control and see what you gain and where it takes!